Thursday, October 24, 2013

My Fight For Me

I had slowly come to hate how I looked.  It hit me in February how much this really struck home, and how much I was blaming it on moving to Maine.  It took me 6 months to get my thyroid meds back and during that time I had I had no control over my weight no matter how much I fought it.  I cried myself to sleep, couldn't understand how Seth and the girls could love me when I couldn't even love myself.  Nothing I did mattered I saw myself as ugly and I could care less how much good I did for anyone else I wasn't happy with me.  In February I decided enough was enough and started working on dropping some weight.  In July after seeing my Mom and brother it really hit home I wasn't working hard enough so after they left I threw myself into loosing weight even harder.  I started tracking calories, going on walks, tracking all the activities I did and working more on working out daily. I set my first goal at 165 and I am 8 pounds away from meeting that first goal.  I feel better about myself, I am seeing the results from my work.  I am even getting Seth doing workouts with me.  It is amazing how much one thing has made such a difference in how I see things.  I might still have "issues" with being so far from home and my family but I am at least working on me and that is one of the biggest things I was having problems facing.  I plan on working hard and staying focused and get down to my final goal and showing the girls how important taking care of your weight is.  I am in charge of ME, MY Health, and it is going to help me work on loving me more.

#24 Watch at least 33 Movies I Have Not Seen

  1. He's Just Not That Into You
  2. Unicorn City
  3. A Bag of Hammers
  4. Red Riding Hood
  5. Public Enemies
  6. J. Edgar Hoover
  7. Hansel and Gretel Warriors of Witchcraft 
  8. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 2
  9. Pirates of the Carribean on Stranger Tides
  10. The Invention of Lying
  11. Pretty in Pink
  12. Charlie Bartlett
  13. Zoolander
  14. Ted
  15. This is the End
  16. Hangover 2
  17. From Hell
  18. Dylan Dog and the Dead of Night
  19. Bad Teacher
  20. Snow White and the Huntsman
  21. Rum Diaries
  22. The Witches of Oz
  23. The Great and Powerful Oz
  24. The Adventures of Tin Tin
  25. Noobz
  26. John Dies at the End
  27. Shoot the Hero
  28. Tucker and Dale vs. Evil
  29. The Crow 
  30. A Haunted House
  31. Zack and Miri Make A Porno
  32. One for the Money
  33. The Blind Side 
 Making this list made me realize how much I don't take the time to watch movies for Me and how far behind I am on watching movies.  So I am going to keep working on catching up on movies.